At first, the idea of "coming home" for school seemed like a total defeat. I had envisioned going coastal for studying, or maybe Europe, or at least somewhere over an hour away from where I grew up. A place, perhaps, that didn't pride itself on Squeak Volume of its cheese curds. It was almost worse to know that I had other more far-away options, that I had spent hours on their applications, and that in the end they were simply unaffordable.
But lately I've been trying to see home as my next adventure, rather than a retreat. I actually don't know much about Madison. As a child, Madison was where I bought shoes. It was also the place with Indian restaurants, an ice cream shop with 29 flavors of ice cream, and a larger selection of movies than the four-screen shanty in Beaver Dam. Most of my friends left the state for college, and even now I only have approximately two friends who currently live there. The fact that I know so few people in Madison is alluring; it oddly makes me more comfortable with the move.
Not to mention, Madison is a really great school, and I was really fortunate to have been accepted. I've met so many people for whom a college education, much less graduate school, only exists as a hazy, unattainable dream. I won't take this for granted.
But lately I've been trying to see home as my next adventure, rather than a retreat. I actually don't know much about Madison. As a child, Madison was where I bought shoes. It was also the place with Indian restaurants, an ice cream shop with 29 flavors of ice cream, and a larger selection of movies than the four-screen shanty in Beaver Dam. Most of my friends left the state for college, and even now I only have approximately two friends who currently live there. The fact that I know so few people in Madison is alluring; it oddly makes me more comfortable with the move.
Not to mention, Madison is a really great school, and I was really fortunate to have been accepted. I've met so many people for whom a college education, much less graduate school, only exists as a hazy, unattainable dream. I won't take this for granted.
I went to Madison last week to meet with some professors. Mom and I drove down in the early afternoon to catch Professor Thongchai Winichakul, a renowned historian of Thailand, during his office hours. I'll be taking his graduate seminar, which goes by the seductive title of "Dangerous Histories." Apparently I'll be doing a lot of my own research on the nation or culture of my choosing; hopefully a head start on my masters thesis.
I also met with Professor Cullinane, who specializes in the history of the Phillipines. He had so much enthusiasm for the program, and was excited to explain my options. Overall, it was relieving to finally show up at "my school," to know that so many other people have interests similar to mine, to see massive books on hill tribes, Loatian politics, and Theravada Buddhism lining the shelves. Maybe leaving Boston to study Southeast Asia in sub-zero temperatures wasn't such a crack-pot idea.
I also can't deny that home in December is comforting. The heating is functional at my parents' house, and I even have an electric blanket. I am always shocked to open the fridge and see it full of delightful things for me to consume, and remember that we have a dishwasher that isn't constantly breaking and transforming our kitchen into a soapy wading pool. Perhaps I can now understand why so many Europeans live with their families until they're like, 40.
And now, a word about Wisconsin for the East Coasters who have never been.
Holy Crimony! The Glorious Benefits of Wisconsin: An exercise in positive thinking as an attempt to not miss my people in Boston so much.
1) Cheese and beer are indeed staples of our diet. There are at least six logs of cheese stored in the Disch freezer to serve as winter provisions, and my mom just bought another five-pounder of Monteray Jack this afternoon (holiday cheese sale!). A landmark on the highway to Madison is Schultz's Cheese Haus, one of many temples to dairy and German-style beef products in my area. My dad stows troughs of beer in the basement like a nuclear disaster is upon us.
And the "squeak factor" of a cheese curd is indeed a topic of discussion. My darling friend Cat asked me if it was because we keep live mice embedded in our cheese logs. This is fortunately not the case. The "squeak" is simply a combination of the texture and the actual sound that emanate from a curd once it is being ground between the back molars. It's not a good idea to by curds at a chain grocery store, because they will have probably lost their squeak, and hence their freshness, and hence will be no different from any other cheese.
2) People are just so nice. I've heard that students from the East Coast who go to Madison for undergrad tend to coagulate in their minority, one reason being that "the Wisconsin kids are too nice to hang out with." Well if pleasantness is a fault, consider us guilty! Darnnit.
3) You know you are in Wisconsin when the YMCA parking lot is full in the middle of a state-wide blizzard warning. No, not even the threat of sliding into a ditch or driving in zero-visibility can deter we Wisconsinites from working off those deep-fried cheese curds from lunch.
4) It's sort of invigorating to be somewhere where you have history. I can't step out of the house without running into someone I know: a high school teacher, a friend's mother, a guy I did community theatre with as a child, the popular girl, the bully. Seeing them is like getting knocked out by a time machine for a split second, only to be immediately flung forward again into the visceral present thinking, "I was intimidated by you? I had a crush on you? You picked me first for kickball when I was used to being chosen last? I spent two weeks studying for your exams?"
And then, you know, one must exercise polite conversation.
